My highest wishes never mounted higher, Than the attainments of an aged sire ; Proverbial wisdom, competence of wealth, Earn'd with hard labour, and enjoy'd with healthi; Blest, had I still these blessings known to prize! More rich I sure had been; perhaps more wise.
One luckless day, returning from the field, Two swains, the wisest that the village held, Talking of books and learning, I o'erheard, Of learned men and learned men's reward: How some rich wives, and some rich livings, got, Sprung from the tenants of a turf-built cot: . Then both concluded though it ruin'd health, Increase of learning was increase of wealth. .
Fired with the prospect, I embraced the hint, A grammar borrowed, and to work I went; The scope and tenor of each rule I kept: No accent miss'd me, and no gender scap'd ; I read whate'er commenting Dutchmen wrote, Turn'd o'er Stobæus, and could Suidas quote ; In letter'd Gellius traced the bearded sage Through all the windings of a wise adage : .' Was the spectator of each honest scar, Each sophist carry'd from each wordy war; .
Undaunted was my heart, nor could appal The mustiest volume of the mustiest stall ; Where'er I turn'd, the giant-spiders fled, And trembling moths retreated as I read; Through Greece and Rome, I then observant
stray'd, Their manners noted, and their states survey'd ; Attended heroes to the bloody fields, Their helmets polish'd, and emboss'd their shields; With duteous hand the decent matron drest, And wrapp'd the stripling in his manly vest ; Nor stop'd I there, but mingled with the boys, Their rattles rattled, and improved their toys; Lash'd conick turbos as in gyres they flew, Bestrode their hobbies, and their whistles blew : But still when this, and more than this, was done, My coat was ragged and my hat was brown.
Then thus I commun'd with myself: “ shall I . “ Let all this learning in oblivion die, “ Live in the haunts of ignorance, content “ With vest unbutton'd, and with breeches rent? « None knows my merit here; if any knew, “ A scholar's worth would meet a scholar's due. - What then the college! ay, 'tis there I'll shine, " I'll study morals, or I'll turn divine ;
VOL. III.
« Struck with my letter'd fame, without a doubt, “ Some modern Lælius will find me out: “ Superior parts can never long be hid, “ And he who wants, deserves not to be fed." .. Transported with the thoughts of this and that, I stitch'd my garments, and I dyed my hat ; To college went, and found with much ado, That roses were not red, nor violets blue ; That all I've learn'd, or all I yet may learn, Can't help me truth from falsehood to discern.
* * * * * * * All mere confusion, altogether hurl'd, One dreary waste, one vast ideal world ! Where uproar rules, and do you what you will, Uproar has ruled it, and will rule it still. Victorious ergo, daring consequence, Will even be a match for common sense! To lordly reason every thing must bow, The hero liberty, and conscience too; The first is fetter'd in a fatal chain, The latter gagg’d attempts to speak in vain. Locke! Malebranche! Hume! abstractions thrice
abstract !. In reason give me what in sense I lack; I feel my poverty, and in my eye, My hat, though dyed has but a dusky dye,
" Mistrust your feelings, Reason bids you do,"- But, gentlemen, indeed I cannot now; For after all your ergo's, look you there My hat is greasy, and my coat is bare.
Hail MORAL TRUTH ! I'm here at least secure, You'll give me comfort, though you keep me poor. But say you so ? in truth 'tis something hard, Virtue does surely merit a reward. . * Reward ! O, servile, selfish; ask a hire !" Raiment and food this body does require: A prince for nothing may philosophize, A student can't afford to be so wise.
Sometimes the-Stoick’s gloomy walks I try'd, Wrinkled my forehead, and enlarged my stride, Despised even hunger, poverty, and pain, Searching my pockets for a crust in vain. Sometimes in Academus' verdant shade, With step more graceful I exulting stray'd, Saw health and fortune join’d with happiness, And virtues smiling in her social dress; On me she did not smile, but rather lour ; I still was wretched, for I still was poor. Sworn to no master, sometimes I would dwell With Shaftesbury, sometimes with Mandeville;
Would call at every system on my way, And now with Leibnitz, now with Manes stay ; But after all my shiftings here and there, My hat was greasy, and my coat was bare.
Then I beheld ny labours past, and lo! It was not vanity, and all was woe; I look'd on learning, and her garb was mean, Her eyes were hollow, and her cheeks were lean ; Disease and Famine threaten'd in her train, And Want, who strives to hide her rags in vain ; Her lurid brow a sprig of laurel traced, On which was mark’d, “Unpension'd and Unplac'd.' I turn'd to ignorance; and lo she sate Enthroned beneath a canopy of state; Before her riches all his bags unty'd, And ever and anon her wants supply'd, While on a smiling plenitude of face, Was clearly read, “ a Pension and a Place."
To Lady D- n, on her learning. In beauty or wit,
No mortal as yet, To question your empire has dared :
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