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the degree in which this is indulged in, the offering would be taken from off the altar, and I would have no right to believe the offering "holy and acceptable," inasmuch as it is not such an offering as God has declared acceptable by the voice of the written word.

The infinitely efficacious blood was represented as ever flowing. And it is thus that the soul, laid upon the altar, is cleansed and kept clean.

O my soul, mayest thou ever remain upon the altar of sacrifice, and Thou, my strength and righteousness, forbid that any unhallowed act should ever cause its removal. It is by thy power alone, O God, that I am kept. Here shall I ever feel the cleansing efficacy. Here shall my soul fill and expand-fill and expand, till it shall burst its tenement, and "faith shall be lost in sight.

August 6.-My peace has not been so great yesterday and to-day. I see wherein I think I might have walked more carefully before God. I have lamented my short comings, and still feel that my all is upon the altar. I have resolved, through grace, to live in the most en

tire devotion to God. My inmost soul cries

out,

"None but Christ to me be given,

None but Christ in earth or heaven."

To-morrow, Providence permitting, I go to the grove, Hempstead Harbor, L. I. I have faith to believe that Jesus will go with me. My prayer is, "Unless thy presence go with me, send me not up." Lord, strengthen my own soul, and make me useful to others.

August 14. The Lord my strength and righteousness, most gloriously answered the petition presented in that last written, even beyond my most enlarged expectations.

"He alone the work hath wrought."

Glory be to His name forever. O how eminently near was the God of my salvation, while going to the grove, and through the whole process of the meeting. I feel constrained to record to the glory of his grace, that he gave me a mouth to speak to others; to warn, entreat, and testify of his grace for the acceptance of all. He also gave me favor in the eyes of the people, and most truly did I experience that

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perfect love casteth out fear. I seemed to be borne quite above my natural timidity, my care being so fully cast upon Christ, the rock of my salvation.

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I received a heart-felt assurance that the unction of the Holy One accompanied what I said to the hearts of others, and at times I was almost ready to stand still with amazement, and

"Wonder why such love to me,"

Why the infinite God should so gloriously condescend to use an instrument so feeble. Well, it was all of grace; and I have thus without scarcely intending it (for I have surely been led in a way I knew not) assumed a character I ever wish to sustain-that of being zealous for the Lord of Hosts. O! may my motto ever be" onward and upward," and God forbid that I should ever be less ardent in my course. My establishment in the blessing I have received, has been more deep and thorough with the experience of each successive day. I have power continually to offer myself a living sacrifice, without any reserve, and feel that the blood of Jesus cleanseth from all unrighteous

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In reference to my future course, I wish to lie passive in the hands of the Lord, as an instrument to perform his pleasure in all things. My will is lost in the will of God. I would not dare not choose for myself, though the choice were given. God is my All in All. I walk by faith, and am enabled to endure as seeing the Invisible, and my enjoyment consists in a calm, quiet resting on the promises of the gospel, assured that it is my Father's good pleasure to give me the kingdom. I feel at rest in the blessed persuasion, that if I, as a coworker with him, make use of the means ordained for my advancement thitherward, the point will be gained. I know that the Holy Spirit has been given, the Comforter has come! and has taken up his abiding residence in my heart-inciting me ceaselessly to every good word and work, and giving me a longing desire for the spiritual benefit of those around me—enabling me also to call upon God with a confidence heretofore unknown, or unfelt, being assured that it is the principle of holy life within me, inditing my petitions and enabling me to exercise faith for the fulfilment of the promises.

Glory be to the Triune God, for such a salvation! I feel a holy ambition to lay up much treasure in heaven-to get near the throne.

One morning during the process of this meeting, I was blest in a very peculiar manner. I awoke about four o'clock with an intense breathing after God. I felt assured by the manner in which my soul seemed to grasp a signal blessing that the Lord was about to seal me more fully His. My prayer was, Lord seal me unto the day of redemption. There seemed to be a distinctiveness in the hallowed exercises of this season, that proclaimed the breathings of my heart to be the work of the spirit, to a degree beyond any former occasion. For near two hours I remained under these peculiar influences, breathing forth in unutterable longings; "Lord seal me, seal me unto the day of redemption." I was enabled to ask with such a degree of faith as to realize that I had the thing I desired of God. Though days have passed since, the assurance of the blessing then received, has been increasing in stability. So sacred seemed the communion, so holy the covenant entered into betwixt the Everlasting God and the Spirit

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